It was on the way to the hospital that I got my closure
I was setting in the back of the van, holding a hand over her cold hands,
Trying to remember her face from yesterday, I remember when we sat talking, I held that image in my head, and I stared her in the eyes, half crying, half smiling, but she wasn’t her usual self, she was crying,
“No you won’t cry” I said, “Smile your big smile with me now, this is important, and this would be my last opportunity to talk to you, we don't have much time”
“remember how much he loves you, he loves you more than I do”, “and you remember the days when you used to say, he comes first, and then us, your own children”
“how can I be sad to leave you, I wil miss you, but you are going to meet him at last, remember how you always said you wanted to go strong as you always were, and now your wish came true”
just remember when you’re asked; “Allah is my god, Islam is my religion”, “Ashhad Anna La Elaha Ella Allah, Wa Ashhad Anna Mohammadon Rasool Allah”,
I said it over and over and over again,
But she was smiling now
She got me
I asked her, “Sho Betwasene?”,
How silly of me, asking a question I know the answer to,
Take care of Baba, taimour and tamara, keep on your prayers.
“you will always be in m heart mama”, “I will never forget you”, “you will be as proud of me as you always were”…
the van rolled its roar to a halt, I remember carrying her body in…
you might have gone, but in my heart you will live forever…
goodbye
your loving son,
I was setting in the back of the van, holding a hand over her cold hands,
Trying to remember her face from yesterday, I remember when we sat talking, I held that image in my head, and I stared her in the eyes, half crying, half smiling, but she wasn’t her usual self, she was crying,
“No you won’t cry” I said, “Smile your big smile with me now, this is important, and this would be my last opportunity to talk to you, we don't have much time”
“remember how much he loves you, he loves you more than I do”, “and you remember the days when you used to say, he comes first, and then us, your own children”
“how can I be sad to leave you, I wil miss you, but you are going to meet him at last, remember how you always said you wanted to go strong as you always were, and now your wish came true”
just remember when you’re asked; “Allah is my god, Islam is my religion”, “Ashhad Anna La Elaha Ella Allah, Wa Ashhad Anna Mohammadon Rasool Allah”,
I said it over and over and over again,
But she was smiling now
She got me
I asked her, “Sho Betwasene?”,
How silly of me, asking a question I know the answer to,
Take care of Baba, taimour and tamara, keep on your prayers.
“you will always be in m heart mama”, “I will never forget you”, “you will be as proud of me as you always were”…
the van rolled its roar to a halt, I remember carrying her body in…
you might have gone, but in my heart you will live forever…
goodbye
your loving son,
Allah Yerhamha :-(
You are amazing Ahmed, how you described the situation.
You are really honest I am speechless.
I am sure that your mom is in heaven
I think she knew that she raised you guys very well. Take care of yourselves. Love you
Hiba: Enshalla she's resting in heaven, i hope i will meet her one day,
and thank you Jamal, i really appreciate it
ahmad ... u made me cry again... amazing how u goodbye her ,,, she is and will always be proud of u dear,,,, o yeag i am sure u will do what she wants to take care of ur family .... allla yr7amha ya rab ...
allah yer7amha ya rab!i wish i could have met her recently :( u will always be in her heart ahmad and we will always miss her...
thank you guys again, i really appreciate it...
well i dont know what to say a7mad,
this post proves how brave you are
alah yr7mha,